Abortion implants a mask which may be difficult and painful to remove.
This can affect all of your close relationships. As a Christian you may feel like hiding your true heart from Jesus. As a wife you may feel untrusting and guarded. As a mother you may feel overprotective and guilty toward your other children. As a daughter you may feel worried that your parents’ heartbreak or anger could never recede. As a friend you may not wish to be fully known if it means disclosing a painful chapter from your past. As a husband you may feel weakened or accused by God. As a brother you may feel sad that your siblings don’t really know you since you hope they will never find out.
But God (one of the most hope-filled phrases I know—“but God…”) will make you new and bring you to a place where you will be happy to be known and to share your deepest heart with others who are close to you. I can tell you this is true from my own experience and from the stories of hundreds of others I know who have gained the freedom to open their hearts to God, and then share who they truly are with others. As God’s love transforms you from within, the old mask fades away.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them.” (2 Corinthians 5: 17-18)
You may have had a mask before you even chose abortion, in fact, many of us thought the choice would allow us to keep pretending to be a better or different person than we actually are. Was abortion the cause of the false personality or vice versa? Either way, the all-sufficient love of Jesus Christ will lead to authentic living and freedom from all false pretense, protections, and pride.